I love the rain.Posted: April 16, 2013
Maybe it’s my Catholic-school / Born Again-daycare upbringing but the imagery and feeling of washing away the dirt/bad/grime/anger/darkness to make room for light/love/clean/joy is so strong in my heart, despite my current lack of religiosity.
Lately I’ve been feeling overwhelmed with my life. And when I look at it, it isn’t because I’m doing things I don’t want to do, but there is just SO MUCH I want to do, and learn, and work on, and enjoy. Everything on my plate is totally of interest to me and I’m scared that if I don’t take all the opportunities as they come I might miss them forever but I’m realizing that I just can’t handle all of that.
So now I’m in the process of prioritizing and the factors involved in that are vast. Things like;
-which of these things do I want to do the most?
-if I pass on this now, will I ever get the chance again?
-if get into this, how much time will it take up, long-term, or is it a one-time experience?
-what is the ratio of cost/reward?
-who does this involve and what are the effects on them?
I’m letting the rain wash over me and take away all the things I don’t need right now. It’s hard because I want to grab onto things I know I’ve needed in the past, and think I’ll need in the future, but those are keeping me from being bright and engaged and energetic.
On this day: