A post about being a stupid teenager.Posted: July 5, 2009
I moved to Ottawa between grades 10 and 11. I went from going to French Catholic school to English public school. The differences in the social interactions were vast.
Shortly after starting school I met this guy and he was very friendly. We hung out a fair amount, mostly with his friends as well and it was all very fun and such. I liked him but also felt awkward about being in a new city and not really feeling like I fit anywhere. A few weeks later I remember having lunch outside the school and a couple of his friends were there and they asked me if I liked him and wanted to date him.
Of course I did! But what did I say to them? Something along the lines of "No not really". Obviously he stopped calling me and we lost touch until a couple of years later he came into the store where I was working to try on shoes. Half way through he did the whole "Do I know you from somewhere?" thing. UGH
Anyways I guess the whole point was that at that time in my life, I was so guarded about my feeling for fear of being judged by them. Like "OMG you LIKE him??? Well HE doesn’t like YOU HAHAHAHA!" Not that these people would have done that but that was pretty much my entire internal monologue until I was about 23 years old. So I played all my cards close to the chest.
I wonder what my life would have turned out to be had I not been so socially inept as a teenager (although all teenagers are socially inept to varying degrees I’m certain). Not that I wish for a different life by any means. I know that I am where I am today because of every single moment of my past.
On this day:
In 2008 – it was a perfect swimming day, just like today but today I have no car and no one to go with.
In 2007 – I still use the same shampoo but I switched to the honey hair conditioner because it smells so awesome
In 2006 – hahaha I love comics!
In 2005 – the door thing still happens all too often